Tuesday, March 30, 2010

still waiting....

for my baby boy.
i do have some wonderful options to get the fire of birthing burning.....

a) take castor oil and get diarhhea for hours

b) take an herbal remedy like blue cohosh and get horrible never ending contractions

C) attach myself to a breast pump which also sounds painful

d) pitocin (been there done that hate it)

e) get a weird water filled catheter blowing things up down there

today I feel like I'm getting to that point where I'm desperate....I'm tired. I'm just wanting to have this baby. Danny says I have to get to the point of desperation where I'm up all night praying fervent never ending prayers that I will go into labor. that's what I did with Eva. I couldn't sleep so I just was like laying and moaning and praying. So I guess I need to have schedule an all night prayer athon tonight and hopefully I can negotiate with God enough to let me have this baby.
What can I promise to do? I will do 100 percent visiting teaching for the REST OF MY LIFE!!! I'll read the scriptures to my kids every night before bed.
I'll personally find homeless people and take them in. Well maybe not. that could be scary.
anyways......pray for me!

Sunday, March 14, 2010

how long can you put a boy in leg warmers?

because those are just really really cute.
I just got a pair that are brown with cars on them and I stare at them with a strange passion.....I just want to see my little child in some leg warmers is that too much to ask? But knowing me and my pregnancy longevity he will be fully one month old before he emerges into the world.
Why do I have to bake babies sooo long? Yes I know my due date isn't for 2 more weeks. And I usually go almost 2 weeks late. So I just need to be patient and continue to be sleep deprived because of the large kid suffocating my breathing capacity for another month until I can be sleep deprived because of a nursing crying little guy for another 12 months or so. Sleep deprivation is just part of my life now and I can't hardly remember ANYTHING. I think it's the long term effects of lack of sleep. I just have no memory for names, dates, events, I can hardly remember to feed the children 3 times a day. That's all I can do. Anyways

Monday, March 1, 2010

We went to the art museum last week...the girls got themselves dressed up and we picked up Lilia and headed over. It is slightly scary taking 2 2-3 year olds to an art museum. We practiced at home though....I kept telling them, if you touch the art it will go " BEEEP BEEEP BEEP BEEP" so we did that about a thousand times. Then I said a security guard would carry them out. Over all it went really well and Lilia walked really cutely with her hands behind her back the whole time.

and they played in the kids area for a while. I've been pretty tired lately and lazy. I am not getting any huge things accomplished (except growing a baby) and keeping the two youngsters alive. Sleep is horrible, and I keep having weird hot flashes, and this guy is kicking, and moving and rolling around constantly. I think he already has ADD or something. That's really horrible to say. Anyways, I want a maid, a chef, a nanny, and hmmm what else...someone to give me endless feet rubs. That's all I need right now. Danny can log about 10 minutes in the feet rubbing department but that's about where it ends.