Friday, September 4, 2009

what's coming up

That sounds disgusting I know....I blessed this pregnancy with my first episode of puking tonight.
I feel horrible, I look horrible, I pretty much feel like this baby is the boy in the bubble and I'm the bubble and I don't do much but protect it from all harm for a while before letting it out of the bubble. But this bubble isn't a happy bubble. anyways bad analogy.

Today while I was having school with Addie I heard a message on my answering machine. It was from the Drs. office I go to saying that I should call them back because they have my test results. I had NO idea what test results they were talking about. I've been to this dr. when I had the girls and they never call about test results.....as long as they're normal. Then I remembered they took like 3 containers of blood from me. And I started to panic....The baby has trisomy 18 and its not going to live past birth! What am I going to do? How can I bury my own child the second it's born? What kind of casket should I pick out? Or it could have down syndrome..or it could have spina bifida or something..... I started crying and ran down the stairs to get the phone and call them immediately.

As I was on the phone the nurse paused for a really long time and she was like...."You have a UTI so I'm calling in a prescription for you."

"I do???" I was almost ecstatic....."But I don't even feel like...any weird feelings....like I don't feel like I have a UTI....are you sure?"

"Yes" she said. "We're sure. Now where do you want your prescription sent to?"

My mind is a fragile and troubling thing right now.
I need that sign....Stay calm and carry on....

4 comments:

Chapman Channel said...

Hahahah--I love this post. You definitely need that sign--a really BIG sign. And while you're at it--make one for me, too. hehe

first lady said...

mmm fun. not really sorry to back being sick !!! yuck..

i'll send you a email, i made my bloggo private, but i thought i sent u an email saying that. basically when you get the email it is coming from the addy of nutwyoming@yahoo.com and it is going to ask you to accept the invite to read my blog, then accept and you can read away :) nothing to exciting going on here thou. i was going to joke and say ... shouldn't you be on your four or fifth pregnancy by now ;-) hee hee

i hope you feel better soon

Amelia said...

I know I know..in mormon standard time you have 5 kids by thirty....but...I'm slackin...

Rachel H said...

Oh millie I am late in reading this but you are especially funny even though you're sick. I love that you immediately wonder what coffin to pick out. haha.